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Mind. Body. Spirit.

The blog title is in reference to a few things today. Right at this moment, it. is. a. mood.

Correction: It. Is. THE. Mood.

Yes, Mercury is in retrograde. Yes, I subscribe to it. Crazy shit happens and I have something to blame the crazy on for a few short weeks a year. It’s a coping mechanism. Just smile and nod and let me be me, people!

Plus, it ends on my birthday. There’s something to that.

I’ve been listening to a lot of really good music lately. New and old. For the past several weeks, a particular song has been replaying in my head. Halfway through my commute home this evening, I turned off the podcast I was trying to listen to in the midst of my “mood” and turned said song on. I desperately needed something to lead said mood into something of value, a takeaway per-say.

Note: as good as it is, the song was NOT Make Out With Me by Maren Morris. That’s for a different post.

Let’s start with what retrograde means.

This is one of my biggest fears. Moving backward. It is hard living your life on an incline without ever slipping up. It’s actually impossible because “hi we’re human”. But damn, y’all, I don’t want to slip up! Today, I was very close to throwing my Italian ass all the way back down the friggin’ mountain, consequences be damned.

Side note: Let me be honest here, I’m officially med free so today took an extra boost of NOT TODAY SATAN! and given the non-medicated circumstances, I hit a motherfuckin’ homerun.

I had to remind myself that Alisa in Retrograde is a non-option. Other people who are seemingly in their own season of retrograde are NOT responsible for where you came from, where you are now and where you’re going. That’s on me! It’s a struggle and I have to continually remind myself that it’s okay to struggle. Why? Well apparently Struggle leaves room for growth. And grace and mercy are a good thing to extend to those who are letting their struggle get to them…apparently side eye sigh Fine.

(flawless segway)

So the song… Enough by Band of Heathens
It’s super important lyrics. (This song paired with Common by Maren Morris & Brandi Carlile has effectively done me in for the week. And it’s only friggin’ Monday.)

Take a listen to it if you want…
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fdy-xsmsHMw

Here are some lyrics to give you an idea.

You got enough food to keep you hungry
You got enough wine to meet demand
You got enough money in your pockets
You got enough wishes in your hand
You got enough gasoline and rockets
To get a leg up on the moon
You got enough higher education
You got everything but room
You got enough oil for your canvas
You got enough cotton for your mills
You got enough iron for your anvils
You got enough paper for your bills
You got enough mouths for all your money
You got enough tv’s for the truth
You got enough hard drives for your records
You got everything but room

[Chorus:]
You got everything you need to know
You got everything you need
You got everything you need to know
You got everything you need but room to grow
You got enough love to make your babies
You got enough war to make them men
You got enough enemies for practice
You got enough contracts for your friends
You got enough churches for your weary
You got Jesus coming soon
You got enough streams of distilled water
You got everything but room

To all of us: Learn from today, do better tomorrow. Breathe, breathe again, and trudge on! -A