Social Awkwardity

Geezus, I’m really bad at this right now. How will I ever build a proper fan base? Sigh.

Mind. Body. Spirit. All the things.

I suppose an update is in order. I’ve put some of my personal struggles and decisions out on front street for you folks so why not fill you in on what has become of some of that…

I was at the nutrition club for lunch this afternoon when another Herba-crack regular commented on my appearance and how different it is these days. Back in my Doing Me post, I talked about how I’ve missed out on a lot of myself because of certain social constructs that I feared. I made a decision to throw out all the clothes I hated because they weren’t me and to get my hair cut how I wanted. And I did.

Ehhhhhhhh, it’s been both good AND bad.

Good because holy shit I didn’t expect to feel so liberated! I knew there would be some sense of freedom, but this is on another level. It’s affected other areas of my life that I never expected – not just how I feel about myself. It’s invited another avenue of creativity to be at work in my life. I’m having fun with my new wardrobe! I’m a little obsessed, actually. I even joined Stitch Fix and now have a stylist who I’m convinced has a Nestcam in my head. And my hair. MY HAIR, GUYS! Obsessed! I can do all kinds of crazy with it and it takes maybe 5 minutes. After I initially got it cut, I commented to a good friend of mine that I feel like this is the cut I was always meant to have but was never ready for until this season of my life. Yasss!

But there’s a very bad side to this. SO SO SO SO BAD! It causes physical pain in my heart.

My wallet, y’all. It hurts.

Gasp!

New clothes are expensive. Wingtip oxfords aren’t cheap, but I must have them. All the wingtip oxfords. And they aren’t complete without fancy blazers, yeah? And fitted ankle pants. And all the things. My stylist likes to call them “investment pieces”. Eye roll. Of course, when it comes to new products for my badass new hair, naturally it has to come from Australia at a very high price because nothing in these parts gets it just right. Right?!

Weep!

Jesus take the brakes!
**As she softly sings “He never promised that the cross would not get heavyyyyyyyyy”**

All action has a reaction.
The action, you control. The reaction, you deal with. At least in this scenerio.

Other current obsessions:

• Busy Philipps.
  Her book, This Will Only Hurt A Little and her new show, Busy Tonight (E!)
• Patriot Act With Hasan Minhaj (Netflix)
• Iliza Shlesinger
• Reebok
• My air fryer
• Eye masks
• Cats

PS – I warned you guys in the title of this blog. It’s a journey through my depths AND SHALLOWS!